06/27/2005

I'm sitting here at work this morning thinking about Saturday night. We went to Friendship Days like always, but somehow this time was different. I saw a lot of people I haven't seen in years, and I guess it just made me feel really old. I don't know why, but I just feel like I have missed so much, or like I have abandoned everything I used to live for. Is this what growing up is supposed to feel like or am I sensing a problem that I should correct? I hate the feeling I get during these times because I don't have anything to use as a reference point to gauge my judgement. Having never had any friends growing up, I really don't know how any of this should feel. I just hope I don't end up feeling this way for the rest of my life.